The Hurt and the Healer Collide

I am  at a place where I am loosing a part of myself. It is like my world is shaking and a part of it has broken off and drifted away. I am still such a kid, and my hopes and expectations are unrealistic sometimes. In other words, I don't know the life. Just a week ago, I though cancer will never come near my family and now one of the dearest people is dying from it. Everyone who is dear to me is hurting.

It made me think, my grandmas and grandpas are getting older and older and I begin to realize that they probably are not going to be around for much longer. Only now do I feel that death is close to all of us and it is real!

All that plus strain and stress from school - and I am falling apart...

It is not a free fall though, I am falling in His arms open wide. Through all of this hurt, I see Him making it better, turning it into something good, leading us through it all in the best possible way. 

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

-MercyMe