Saturday, March 30, 2013

Another life

I have this weird feeling that I don't want to be here... In this life, I don't want to be running around town all day long looking for patients and then crashing on my bed exhausted. I don't want to be thinking of all the papers I need to write tomorrow. I don't want to be responsible for my life, yet have very little to do when it seems to be shaking. I don't want to be investing my time and energy in something that might not come to be at all...
In my mind, I imagine this free life of traveling, and crazy night hikes, of coffee with the sun rise on the beach, of my old film camera in my hand and a silk skirt on my hips under an Eiffel tower, of wet grass on my feet and sun in my face and wind in my hair and salt on my lips, of irresponsible actions and unimaginable moments - of young life that I somehow skipped...
Maybe I shouldn't have started thinking of children and family so early in life, maybe I shouldn't have placed all these responsibilities on my poor head before I even tasted the free life. Straight out of school into college, straight out of first love into marriage, straight out of childhood into adulthood. Now I feel like I missed something great, something I had to grow tired of first, before I got where I am now... Maybe I worked too hard on guarding my thoughts and actions, on keeping myself at a balance...
Or maybe I am just tired, stressed, and discouraged... Because I love my husband and want to have his children and take care of our house, and build our life together.
My head tells me that I should erase these words and shoo away these thoughts, but my heart whispers that when this is over, I will buy film for my camera, find a silk skirt, load new music into my ipod and go somewhere where the air tastes salty, wind is cool, grass is wet, sunsets are breathtaking, and thoughts are light... After all we can be free together.

Friday, March 29, 2013

О будущем

О будущем нимало не тужи,
Церковным людям не к лицу тревога.
Все будет так, как нужно для души:
Нет ничего на свете ближе Бога!

- Иеромонах Роман

Повторяю этот стих в голове как молитву. "Все будет так как нужно для души" потому что грядут тяжелые и напряженные для меня времена. Возможно после следующей недели два года моих трудов закончатся видимым провалом. Но сколько жизненной мудрости вместил Господь в это короткое время, а значит ничего не зря. Жизнь с Богом несравнимо легче чем без Него, ведь всему дан смысл, теплота, и забота. В ответ же спрашивается душевное усердие и любовь к Нему и смирение перед Его волей.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Little family makeover

When I brought them home, Jenya said that when we were buying the doll house, this family was actually already in the house, but at that point I said I didn't want them because I didn't like the way they looked. It is interesting that they stayed in the store and we found them later and I ended up taking them back to their house.
But it is true - I didn't like the way they looked. The big hair the faded and stained clothes in crazy colors, and the father, according to Jenya, looked like he would be driving a minivan kidnapping little kids - in other words plain creepy.
So I gave them a great makeover, that actually involved shaving their heads - literally  because the mother's hair was so big, I had to shave it down before wigging her. I even performed plastic surgery on the father to shave his huge cheek bones down before hiding is crazy little teeth behind a mustache and a beard.
They are pretty happy with the way the look now, and so am I. I shopped around for another doll family and non of them looked the way I wanted them to, but these three are it!
I came up with some random names for them too.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Doll House - Kitchen

Three posts today! I guess with a week away from school, I have more to tell than with months in it... So this one is about something I did today - finally put floors and tile and the kitchen I renovated earlier in! There is much more to be done - adding food and island and maybe a rug, and some wall art, but it is definetelly exciting to have my first room completed! It is looking cozy and I am hopeful for the rest of the house to turn out good some day! For the lights in the kitchen I put two spotlights under the hood above the sink, I like the way it turned out!
Now my new obstacle is to figure out some kind of turning table for it - should I buy a pretty table for $150 or should I but a turning thing and look for a cheaper table... That is my dilemma at this point.

Thursday Night Crafting Club

This time we met at my house. I made pizza and salad and we had a new member - my classmate Joss. It was so much fun and we came up with a pattern for my quilt! It is so exciting as we are going to start sewing the flowers next time we meet! Once again, this club of ours is just so wonderful!

New Knitting Project

A week or so ago, my Jenya was watching me knit my cowl and said that I remind him of an outlet mall - it is 80'F outside and I am knitting a thick, warm cowl. I took that in consideration and switched gears to a lovely bolero that I can wear on a cool summer day. I found a beautiful pattern here, and it is exactly what I would love to wear! I immediately ordered the yarn from them and I can't even begin to explain how delicate and soft it is! The color is amazing too!
Now when I got my yarn And began knitting, the pattern kicked my butt right from the start, I could not figure out the schematics - where do you start, which way do you go? Nothing looked right. I had to take each piece and knit that little sample until it looked right. Once I figured it out, it wasn't so bad, I just need to constantly pay attention to what I am doing.
So this is my new project. Any new projects, friends?

Wednesday, March 20, 2013


Just like that the day I spent five hours taking my board exam came and passed, my parents came back from their trip, and half of my spring break is gone. My mommy brought us a little terrarium and a pretty plant to live in it, I sure hope it will survive, but for now it just sits pretty on our kitchen window.
Also my hubby and I played Monopoly a couple of days ago, it was fun, but I felt really bad for taking his game money.
I finally bought the supplies to wire my doll house, now the whole family is working hard to put lights into every room.
Tomorrow is the first time that our crafting club is meeting at my house! I am so excited!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Spring Studying

The Spring is in full swing here in Vegas - we had 80'F for the past four days now. We are getting tiny new leaves on our little orange tree. It is hot, but bearable so I am trying to be outside as much as possible. I have one simple but unflattering task at this point - study for my regional board exam that I am taking in two days on Tuesday to get my license upon graduating. It is a big deal as I have to remember (or more like relearn) everything they tried to cram in our poor brains in the past two years. It is an eight hour test with over 300 questions and it is intimidating to say the least. So to try and make it a little less hideous and more pleasurable, I go outside as much as possible.
Yesterday I went to my mom's house and studied on their backyard basking in the sun and accompanied by Mia.
Today we all went fishing on Colorado river. It was quite a trip as we were forced to look for fishing license for three hours! (Boulder City doesn't sell them - so weird for a city built right by the water!) but at the end we finally got there, but didn't catch anything, still it was nice to sit by the water with a bunch of funny guys. Beats sitting at home for sure!

This lovely weather makes my life a little easier right now. Wish me luck for that Tuesday and for the rest of the semester for that matter...

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Friday Night Crafting Club (on Thursday)

We might have to rename it to a Thursday Night Crafting Club because we meet on Thursdays a lot more often nowadays. I have to say I look forward to that meeting all week long - it is one of a few happy things in my crazy life right now. I was working on my hexagon quilt this time (it is slowly moving along), Mila was working with paper, Sonya was painting eggs for Easter, and Marsel was crocheting something new. Mom couldn't attend, but I am sure she had fun riding bikes with dad somewhere in California instead. We had tea with scones and discussed our past and future.
Next week we are finally meeting at my place, so I can show everyone all of my finished projects and new toys. Plus it is a spring break for me, so I can cook something fun. I can't wait!
Our club is slowly growing, and I am excited about that!

P.S. lately I am feeling lazy (or overwhelmed) and I post all my photos untouched. I kinda like them that way, they are more real to me. So yes, I know they are darker than they should be, but that is how I like them!