"Love is hard to offend and quick to forgive" Love doesn't get angry or hurt unless there is a legitimate and just reason in the sight of God. We need to exercise emotional self-controll. Some of the reasons that contribute to irritability, the book describes are stress, selfishness, lust, bitterness, greed, and pride. I think mine are stress and pride... A lot of both. The problem is, I honestly do not think it would be possible to lessen amount of stress in my life until I am done with school. I just hope that it will in fact lessen after that, because God knows I can't take it anymore! So here is the dare...
I will be honest, my heart is not in it today. I am miserably sick, I don't get as much care from my husband as I wish I would have (let's just say that at 10pm he suggested we work around the house... Making me feel that I am lazy for not cleaning the mess that our house have become, which is the one thing I always feel when I allow myself any rest...) Don't get me wrong, he doesn't completely ignore my sickness, I am sure he does everything he can, but I can think of at least five things I would have done if he would be sick (and in fact did every time he would get sick) that he is not doing now that I am sick... This phrase alone stands against everything I've learned so far about love... So obviously I am not exactly the patient kind right now. Rather self-centered, sick-of-this-whole-thing type of person. I feel like I am at the self-pity stage and the fact that I have six finals in the next three days does not help the matter. So I failed at this one today. I did pretty good in the morning but it all went down hill from there. I am contemplating trying it again tomorrow or moving on to the next one while still trying to do this one... We'll see how I feel tomorrow...
I'm wondering if you fill any different now after you done with your school?
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